Wishes...

I am having such a hard time right now and overall just feel so lonely.  Ever since last June I feel like I can not get a grip on what my life has become.  Everyone has moved on and I am stuck at the bottoe.  Last year at this time I was on top of the world!  I had just gotten married had finished my 2nd year as a special ed teacher at a private school and was getting ready to leave on a wonderful trip to Europe.  Now I have no job and no hopes of finding anything anytime soon, a baby on the way, and my husband and I hardly act more than roommates.  I spend my days sleeping or watching tv with no motivation to do anything.  After Norbel went bankrupt I got a job working with at risk youth.  This was a horrible mistake and not for me.  Then I worked for a deadbeat boss at a daycare.  I am still so devestated that Norbel closed.  I never got to say goodbye to the kids and I was finally making a name for myself with a career.  Working was very important to me.  Having something I could be proud of and making a difference in childrens lives.  I loved the kids and they loved me and the parents loved me.  I just dont know where to look.  I have applied to Anne Arundel County by have heard nothing back.  Besides I am due in August and probably won't find anything for this year.  I just do not know how I will pass the time I am so lonely.

The Beginning

I finally thought I would start a blog!!  The only reason is that I hope to keep a record of Mine and Marc's life together to share with our children one day.  I was reading a friend's blog and saw a link that led to a page that shows you how to turn your blog into a book!  How cool is that?  So anyways a lot is going on lately.  Our wedding is less than 3 months away and so that puts me on stress overload.  I never realized how involved and overwhelming the process can be. We have most of the big things out of the way like dj, flowers, cake, venue and dresses but we still do not have someone to marry us! So that is my weekends chore:(

So Marc and I started this whole journey when we met snowboarding 6 years ago.  We became fast friends and things just went from there.  Marc is a IT Engineer and I teach Special Education.  I really enjoy my job but sometimes it is a lot of work.  This week has been very tiring because reports were due and also my cheerleaders are getting ready for a big game tomorrow.  Marc enjoy's his job as well, unfortunately he had to go to a funeral this past week for one of his co-workers who died way to young. 

We also have a dog that we got 3 years ago.  His name is Bob and he is such a sweetie.  He is a lab and beagle mix and has a great temperment.  Well I am tired but will write more soon!