Tuesday, June 19, 2012
I am having such a hard time right now and overall just feel so lonely. Ever since last June I feel like I can not get a grip on what my life has become. Everyone has moved on and I am stuck at the bottoe. Last year at this time I was on top of the world! I had just gotten married had finished my 2nd year as a special ed teacher at a private school and was getting ready to leave on a wonderful trip to Europe. Now I have no job and no hopes of finding anything anytime soon, a baby on the way, and my husband and I hardly act more than roommates. I spend my days sleeping or watching tv with no motivation to do anything. After Norbel went bankrupt I got a job working with at risk youth. This was a horrible mistake and not for me. Then I worked for a deadbeat boss at a daycare. I am still so devestated that Norbel closed. I never got to say goodbye to the kids and I was finally making a name for myself with a career. Working was very important to me. Having something I could be proud of and making a difference in childrens lives. I loved the kids and they loved me and the parents loved me. I just dont know where to look. I have applied to Anne Arundel County by have heard nothing back. Besides I am due in August and probably won't find anything for this year. I just do not know how I will pass the time I am so lonely.